Alhamdulillah everything is alright now. I'm just too happy. =D

I don't know what to do right now. I fucking don't know what to do. Everything seems wrong. But i just couldn't bring myself to even solve it. I feel like giving up everything. Its just so hard when I have only myself. I tried to be strong. Why am I fucking weak? Maybe I'm just used to depend on others. So now when I have nobody by my side, I felt so useless. Aini, you are fucking useless! There is fucking no use to cry over these fucking problems. Ah fuck lah! I don't even know what the fucking hell I'm talking about. Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!!


I need chocolate. Lucky enough for me, there's chocolate inside the fridge. =D

So, what I can i do next? Cry the whole day? Aini, don't be such a fucking cry baby!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I spent my day all alone today. I went over Westmall since I was craving for Coffee Bean so much. I decided to hang around there and ordered Pure chocolate ice blended and Blueberry Muffin. While enjoying the taste of the beverage, I managed to study a bit. I gave up after 2 hours. I lost concentration along the way. Too much things going around in my brain. LOL. I walked around Westmall to do a bit of shopping. I can't manage to find the bag i wanted so i give it a miss. The nike bags in westmall don't have any nice design. Sheesh~ Guess i have to buy it next time. The frustrating thing was, i can't seem to find things i wanted to buy. Betol punye frust! Dah lah frust dngn diri aku sendiri!

After walking around aimlessly in Westmall, i decided to proceed to Lot 1. Walked around for quite a very long time. haha! And i think people were staring at me. When i reached level 4, i went down and up again. kens kn aku! Bought myself a compact powder at lot 1. Then, sat behind lot 1. After like hours past, when home sweet home.

I'm fucking HAPPY sei today!! whatever..

I feel like giving up. Give up everything in my life. I'm just too tired. haiz. But whatever it is, I have to be strong. I need to be strong. Although i'm all alone, i have to depend on myself. Because people around you won't always be around you. I got my back!



ps: I love you so much. i'm sorry. i failed to make u happy.

Currently watching Hellboy at Shafiqah Iqma's place. Kind of weird, me sleeping over here on sunday. The fact that tmrw is a schooling day. Well, i've not been sleeping here for a very long time. Since she sleep over my place yesterday, so might as well i accompany her back and sleep over her place. haha!

I bet tmrw will be a tiring day in school. Sheesh~ Starts at 8 and end at 5. I hate Monday classes. Well, the fact that there's programming class on Monday. I think i need to find someone to help me out with programming. Maybe should ask Mr Jason for private tutor. I need special attention. haha!

Hellboy is effing hot. Okay I know i'm so random. =D

I just feel like posting pictures. So..

28 June, Alexandra Arch & Henderson Wave:



















17th June, Baby's birthday:

Currently having 2 hours of break. E PLAZA is seriously freezing. I don't get it, why should the school waste a lot of electricity just to place air conditioner in every place in the school? duh. I'm kind of scared of the test later on. Its a test on programming. Frankly speaking, i abhor programming. I just won't understand that module. Its like everytime i try reading the super thick book of programming techniques, nothing just come into my brain. Damn it. Why i even learn such module? I'm not the only one with this problem okey. Most of my classmate have not even start on their programming project. As for me, I've started on the template only but not the coding. Sheesh~ I think i will do badly for this module. heck care..

I'm down with fever since monday which result in two days of mc. I feel much better today compare to yesterday. Thank god! Its kind of irritating getting sick. I can't even get off my whole body to clinic. haha. So baby accompanied me to the clinic near my house. The moment he saw me, he kept complaining about how I easily get sick. LOL. Yeah baby, you are strong and you won't get sick easily.. haha! Anyway, thanks to baby for really taking good care of me yesterday. hehe. =D

I've not been touching this blog for ages. Been kind of busy with life. Was enjoying every single day of my two weeks holiday. Well, at the same time been cracking up my brain with revisions for common test which is after the two weeks holiday. And... Guess what? All the revisions definitely did not paid of. I got totally blank during all three papers. Thanks eh. However, I'm glad that the common test is only 10%. Big relief.. Despite the pressures I got from the common test, I still manage to spend time with my baby. We really spent our quality time together during the holiday. I do know how to manage time. *pat shoulder* Obviously I have to make full use of the time right. Once school re-open, we only get to meet each other twice or thrice a week. For this week itself I'll be meeting him only tomorrow and maybe Saturday. Aiyo~

So anyway, Happy Birthday Ibu! And i just realise that my mom is kind of old. haha. She's already 46 but in my eyes, she still a young and most beautiful women in my life. I really thank god for giving me a mother like her. Gosh, I really really love you though sometimes you disappoint me in certain ways.. But still she's the mother anyone would imagine to have. She really sacrifice a lot in this family. She is a mother who although busy with her work in office, still manage to spare some time to message her daughters asking their whereabout and even sending message which make her daughters smile. Also, when her daughters are having exams or important things on that day, she'll be the one who msg them to wish them good luck. Although its a small thing to everyone, I still do appreciate them. Ibu, wo chen de ai ni! =D

But my father is otherwise. Arggh!! I guess I should forget about what happened like what baby say. I'm totally devastated.. Its hard dealing with people who have high level of ego in them. Sometimes, I feel like life would be way better without you, because there's not much different having you around.

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